Recovery Journeys
I will share my personal journey with you all.
When I was 11, I was a skinny kid, and a fast cross country runner. As I aged and hit puberty, I obviously started putting on weight. I didn't want to put on the weight because it was making me a slower runner, so I decided that I was going to try and eat as little amount of food as possible. I would go to school, without food, and barely make it through the day. FINALLY I would come home, and with no one around... I would annihilate anything in my path. This cycle continued for years, even throughout high school. I wasn't overweight yet but was definitely on my way there. On top of that, I had created a terrible food habit and didn't know how to eat like a "normal person". It was extremely uncomfortable eating around people, and then when I was alone I would just binge. Throughout my later years I started stacking on weight because of my terrible food habits. Eventually, I started to throw up my binges. But even whilst throwing up my binges I was putting on weight. During one particular rough part of my life I gained 40 pounds in the course of 4 months, even whilst throwing up multiple times a day. One of my partners suggested that I seek help for this, so I went to an intensive outpatient care eating disorder program. It helped in the way that I learned a lot about myself, however the binge eating didn't stop while I was in, and with the food they were making us eat, I gained 20 lbs in 8 weeks. I was mortified and now definitely overweight. I decided to lock in and really figure this thing out. It's been 6 months after leaving the eating disorder program I am doing much better now. It took a lot of work on my end, but I wanted to create this website (and workbooks) to share my journey and the steps I had to take to recover. Recovery is in fact possible AND despite everyone saying that you can't lose weight and recover at the same time, it's not true. In fact losing weight (IN A HEALTHY WAY) during my recovery was what kept me motivated.
